I'm noticing this tendency to blog after becoming slightly inebriated, but perhapes it's just my love of communicating that's driving me to the computer screen. I'm a third year collage student majoring in pre-medical studies. I love what I do but I have to admit I find medical school extremely intimidating. I'm wondering instead if PA or nursing school is the correct path for me. I came to my four year college as a means to and end, medical school was always my goal, but now that I'm up to my eyeballs in the medical sciences I'm worried about my ability to thrive in such a demanding profession. My life right now seems committed to my textbooks and lecture and I have little time for anything else. There is a part of me that loves being indebted to my studies, there's another part of me that wants to throw caution to the wind, major in art, major in music, raise my voice to the heavens and let the pieces fall where the may.
I keep saying to myself that there are no definite plans, and that I need to "follow my heart." But it's so hard to know where to go from here, I wonder if there are any other people stuck in my predicament. I think about my parents and how they came to be where they are, how they fond each other, and how they found a way to make a living and wonder how did they get there? Do they feel like they made the right choices? These are thing I think about so often, I compare myself to them constantly, but this age they were married, and by this age they had completed college, by this age they were employed and making a living, and totally independent, and find that I am not measuring up. Sure I'm forgetting to factor in inflation, and a slew of other things that plagued my parents when they were in their twenties, but I can't help to feel like I'm failing some how. I've been told that in your twenties life seems to be slipping by so fast and that you feel that you have so much to prove to the world. Taking in that regard I'm not to far off target, but I just wondering if I'll ever have the answers. If I'll ever wind up where I want to be.
Right now I'm going to say that I will, perhaps it's just the drunk optimism talking, or maybe it's the truth, despite what I think, I have the time, and I have the love, the only thing that's stopping me is me.
Now back on to This Side UP normalcy WHERE HAVE THE FLEET FOXES BEEN ALL MY LIFE?! I'M OBSESSED... buy their self titled album it's great... and that's not just the alcohol talking...
